Stop Joseph Kony Now!

Giving into the Anger

There is nothing more that I can't stand than people who are unknowingly un-sensitive and Judgmental!

Unfortunately this is something that I tend to experience more with people that I think will not judge me and I think I can be comfortable around. Such as family and friends...maybe because there is such a high level of comfort there that they think they can say whatever they want and it is okay....well it pisses me off! So goes the saying treat strangers like family and family like strangers. Here's what I mean by this: if a customer at work was to make an obnoxious comment to you, naturally you would want to respond with a "fuck off!" but because you know that maybe you should be sensitive to the fact that hmmm I don't know their grandpa might of just passed away. Or you might get fired or looked down upon in the work place for not having the self restraint to handle your self with professionalism. Either way whether you are basing the decisions of your actions off of the monetary system that makes the world go round and you can't afford to lose your job because you got pissed off for two minutes. Or because you are worried about how you will be perceived to complete strangers if you give in to that impulsive anger. The perception of our family and friends should be of far more importance to us when shit is hitting the fan. The people that we care for, and the people that care far more for us than our "bosses" do. Should get the better part of our impulse control skills. Instead of saving our better selves for complete strangers and coming home and going all psychotic on the ones we love. Because we built it all up, just to let it all out on someone that we know will forgive us.The point to this tirade is that as a whole maybe we should start listening to what comes out of our mouths and how insensitive a comment can sound or how rude and bitter a tone and eye squint can make a statement seem. It's not okay just because you are related to that person or have known them for a long period of time. To expect their forgiveness when you are under minding them and treating them like they are of less worth than the person that you have just met...just saying stay aware of what may be of more importance in life...goodnight :)

Back to Reality

So yesterday I arrived back in town from a well deserved vacation to Hawaii....It was amazing and the first time I have ever gotten to experience an actual "exotic vacation"! I must admit it was very difficult to leave.But it was a restart button in my life that needed to be pushed! & Now I am more motivated than ever to get the "productivity ball" rolling...With that said I am back to blogging because it is an outlet that I need in life and I can't start something and not finish it! That is a pattern all to well known with me lol. The moment I landed I felt the difference energy-wise in the air...the tropical moist wind with a mixture of calmness and relaxation, I was in love immediately! I made one goal and rule in my Hawaii bucket list. TO HAVE FUN. BUT because there are more women than men in my family there tends to be a lot of bickering and sensitivity to comments lol. I actually had to take a moment while I was there one certain night to take a breather away from everyone and take a walk. I have realized while growing on my spiritual path that I am highly sensitive to people's energies, More-so than others typically are. Now this can and is a good thing! But because I have not fully learned how to concentrate on my energy and be able to block out other's it can be quite damn effective on an emotional level for me. I will be quite drained at random times and tend to notice if a persons mood will shift I can absorb it pretty well and than so will mine. But on a happier note at least it is something that I have been gifted with and have the open eyes to acknowledge it. & Now I can work to control it better as I grow! Having a more positive outlook on life and STICKING to my goals is more vital for my whole self growth now more than ever! With that said I have a grander respect for mother Gaia now that I have gotten to see a little more of her beauty and I will definitely continue to make my travel goals more of a priority while I am here :)